A Testimony of the Past Wounds
As I woke on a recent morning and was praying, the Lord took me back to a time in my first job in ministry when I was sixteen and began to work for a church. There were two specific scenes that replayed in my mind. After the minister hired me, he didn’t pay me. I was working approximately thirty hours a week and yet week after week passed and I received no pay check. I had to ask, on more than one occasion, for what was due me from our agreement. Finally after two and a half months I received my first paycheck which caught up the past due amount and a regular paycheck began thereafter. But something was deposited in me in that encounter which I didn’t realize.
Then the Lord brought to mind another incident a couple of years later at the same ministry. The minimum wage had increased, but my salary had not. I was now making less than minimum wage. I didn’t say anything for a long time. Just a kid in my teens, I felt certain that my employer would do the right thing. But a couple of months past and he didn’t. Finally I asked for a meeting. As I stood before him, I asked about a raise so that my salary would at least be at minimum wage. The minister said to me, “Why do you think you deserve it?” The sting of his words remained with me long after. The effects I now realized had followed me my entire life from these two incidents.
I hadn’t thought about them in years, but as I prayed now, I understood with great clarity there significance. I was praying for a release in finances when the Lord brought these to mind and He spoke to me,“Break off what was deposited on you.”
For the past 35 years there have been two things which have plagued my business. Clients (ironically like my first employer, mostly ministers) who don’t pay in a timely manner until it is requested over and over. If you’ve worked in ministry long, some of you may say, “Well that’s normal.” But it shouldn’t be. Why do we accept it as such?
But the second thing has been more unusual. Over the years, I have had a repetition of clients who agree to a contracted price, and then when the project is finished randomly determine to change my fee so that it is under what was agreed. Some have simply written their check for the amount they determine is fair. Crazy right? Who does that? I saw now how it was very similar to the minimum wage issue where I was receiving under what should have been. This has happened so many times over the years that it has ceased to surprise me. It has forced me to take action to request what was contracted and due, which is wrong. It is bizarre.
Breaking Off the Past
As I contemplated the two incidents from the past, the Lord said again, “Break off that which was deposited on you.”
This is a word for us now.
This is a time of breaking off the past. The Lord is taking you into a new season, but in order to walk in the new season, you must walk out of the things of the past. Things that were deposited on you, often times by what others did to you or spoke over you. And yet there has been a residue that has repeated the cycle over and over again, no matter what you have done. For some it has been in financial areas. For others in relationships. For others health or employment. But it has been a bizarre pattern that has left you perplexed.
For many, you have sat and wondered at why some of these same things continue to manifest in your life even though you have prayed repeatedly. You tithe, you give to others. You have fasted and prayed. It is because the root, the seed which some have not even recognized was deposited in you, has been buried deep and hidden. Pull it out now.
You may not even remember what was done, but the Lord can show you. Then speak to that seed as to the mountain and command it to be cast into the sea. From the very root pull it out and command it to be broken and for the blessing to be released. These repeated issues have become the norm and so we have accepted them as normal and yet they are not. There is an anointing to see them broken if you will pull out the root.
These were things God never intended and yet man deposited onto our lives that have had long-term effects. Those effects will also now be broken as you stand and something new will begin in its place.
The Lord Says, “Waves”
“No longer will those things have control over you or continue to manifest in your life, for I am doing a new thing and bringing you out of the things of the past. My blessing that has been withheld is now pouring out in waves. Waves. Like the ocean tide that pours in and crashes against the rocks, so will this change be in your life. It will be so significant that it will seem that the blessing and goodness will come in crashing waves one after another.
“It will be a new thing and so drastically different from what you have experienced. Expect it. Expect the tide to change from withholding to blessing. The past will be past, along with its cycle, as you speak to it and break it off. The root, now exposed and removed, will wither and the cycle will finally be broken.
Karen Hardin is an author, minister and literary agent. She is called to exhort, encourage and help raise up the remnant. She desires to empower those who have grown weary so they can reposition to walk in identity and destiny. Her work has appeared in “USA Today,” “World Net Daily,” “Outlook Magazine,” “Charisma,” “CBN.com,” and more. Karen has a passion to help others reach their highest potential and achieve their dreams with the message God has given them. She and her husband, Kevin, make their home in Oklahoma along with their three kids.